Optomistic....

I'm not feeling 100% like me, but I'm about a 97 or 98. I can't act like it never happened. I think I would think that there would be something wrong with me, if it didn't get to me every now and then. You know what I mean? I just don't know how to be ok that I got lied to, that I was given false hopes and promises. I went to the cemetary and talked, which is what I think I needed to do, and should have just done yesterday. I screamed and threw my fit and complained about how unfair it is, and I feel so much better now. I'm sick and tired of trying to be the perfect child. I kill myself to get the grades, friends, I'm sick of feeling like I have to walk around with this face and pretend that nothings wrong when all I want to do is cry. I've never been one to just dump my problems on anyone. I will talk, I will listen, I will advise you on things, but I don't want to dump what's on me on you. It seems that everyone has enough of their own problems that listening to me complain about how unfair it is, itsn't fair to them. I'm just being greedy. But it's like I said I feel remarkably better today. I just needed to clean it out and put a new bandaid on it.

I fixed my project for Afro-American history and my bib. I need another first source and then I can turn that back in. I have some math to do that I have no idea how I'm going to do it. I'm not good at word problems at all. This could kill me. And some quizes to send in.

Math just made me a downer. So I'm done with it for now. Maybe someone could help me?

~Positive~