Family Guy

It's been an interesting day, I went swimming which was a great time we made chicken and sausage over the fire and then we made Smores. It was Marsha, Matt, Sarah, Andy and me. My mom got her make over today and she babysat Caleb so we could all go swimming. I'm feeling some better today, I think tomorrow no matter what I'm going to run. Probably on the treadmill but there is nothing wrong with that. I need to get into shape, and fast. 5 weeks and then I'm gone. Wow that's a depressing thought. I need to meet with my recruiter here again soon, I'm not sure when though. I guess they'll call when they need me. I feel like I should run right now. Hmmmmmm.....maybe I should......Nah I will wait until tomorrow and see if I feel any better, though I am running tomorrow. :)

~Sleeping~

Picnic and a Cold

I went to Clarion to visit some friends. Kris told me that her family was having a picnic and she wanted me to go, so Dylan and I packed up into the car and we went, well around 7 I started to get stuffy and I couldn't stop caughing. So we left and I still don't feel any better. I've taken sinus pills and tylenol. You know I've never had allergies this bad. Hopefully things won't be this bad in South Carolina.

I counted it out today, 5 weeks and 2 days. I leave in 5 weeks and 2 days. It's kind of scary, what if I fail? What if I can't do it? I know I need to not think like that. I'm sure everything will be ok. Being gone for 5 months is a really scary thought. I don't want to be gone for that long, but I guess I have no choice.

I heard something amazing today, "It's like when you get a cut that get's infected and then it leaves a nasty scar that never goes away." It's so true. We all have our "scars." Things have happened to all of us that leave us bloodied and broken and sometimes with a couple of scars.

~Sick~

Relaxing

I decided that today I was just going to relax and lounge in my jammies. I've been so busy and caught up in getting into the Army and I spent so much time running around yesterday that I forgot to just sit back and relax. This is what I've been looking forward to sense I signed all the papers, reveling in the fact that I got in.

I slept in today, I've just been lounging and relaxing. I need to live one day at a time and love it all, because I'm going to be gone for five months. My body is starting to normalize again. I'm starting to feel better, I just need my muscles to relax. I'm going to start PT next week. (physical traning.) That's enough for now, I'm just going to chill now.

~Relaxing~

Shipping Out

Alright boys and girls, I went to MEPS today and I GOT IN!! I'm in the army, I'm in the military. HOW COOL IS THAT? My goal, my unattainable goal has been attained. How amazing is that? I'm so happy. I had to do the ARMS test and a lot of shit went down there, its a long story. My body is exhausted I have nothing left so I'm off to bed.

~EXCITED~

It's Not So Bad

I'm trying to keep my mind busy, trying to think of anything but MEPS and the Army. I reality that I could be leaving in July is starting to set in. July 7th, the day I ship out and the day my family leaves for vacation. I have to find someone to take me to the air port because no one can push the vacation back one day. Doesn't matter that I'd be leaving for the Army, doesn't matter that I won't be home for f ive months. Just matters that this vacation has been planned longer. That really bothers me that everyone is more concerned with a stupid vacation, but I guess I know what is more important to people, I just want to say that it's people like me that give you the right to blow your own kids off. I'm excited but I'm really nervous. I want in, I want in so bad I can taste it. I haven't wanted anything this bad sense I got my license. Please just cross your fingers for me, I know it will work out the way it's suppose to.

~Nervous but Hopeful~

Diploma, SS Card, Birth Certificate, and Transcripts

Well I need all these things for my recruiter. I don't know where my birth cert is and I lost my SS Card somewhere, I however have my diploma and can get my transcripts. I spent most of this morning trying to find out addresses for my siblings and birthdates as well.

Other then this it's been pretty uneventful. I hung out with Alexis last night and that was fun. I'm going shopping for new jean's tomorrow. Hurray I'm excited. I need new ones.

~Sore~

Push Ups

I went and did the arms test today, passed with flying colors. Just don't quit and you've got it made. I also have to do 3 push ups. SG Hughs made me drop and give him 3 and I did it. Not well but I did all three. I was pretty proud. He thinks that I'm going to pass with flying colors. I think I'm going to run tomorrow and work some more on my push ups. I want to make sure that everything is going to go well. This is really important to me. I hope that you all understand how much this means to me. I really do.

~ Sweepy~

An American Soldier

I went to talk to the recruiter again today, to talk about jobs and college credits to figure everything out basically. He looked at me and said are you ready for this and the paper work got started. I go to MEPS (Military Entrance Physical) on Tuesday, I leave for Pittsburgh on Monday but it's not until Tuesday. I find out then if I pass and can go on to basic's. If I pass and swear in I will go to basic's in July and I will be shipped out to Fort Jackson SC. After that I will be shipped off to Fort Bragg NC. I will have to miss a semester of school because I will just have to, it's the way my job would work. Don't worry, when I get back I'll resume school and take up the ROTC so they can't deploy me, not only that but I will graduate as an officer as well. I know that my friends are backing me up. I'm a little nervous, I don't know what to expect or what I'm going to have to do, but I will take one day at a time, I'll worry about tomorrow when it get's here. Everyone just keep me in mind and pray to whatever God you believe in, because I'm going to need all the help I can get. Sean told me to run and practice my push-up. Which I am going to do. I want this I want my name on that uniform and I want people to say that I did something with my life. My mom took it much better then I thought she would. She didn't yell, scream or cry. She just said do what you have to do. I think she's finally realized that I'm a big girl and I'm grown up.

~Exhausted~

Soldiers Creed

I am an American Soldier.
I am a Warrior and a member of a team.
I serve the people of the United States and live the Army Values.
I will always place the mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.
I am disciplined, physically and mentally though, trained and proficient in my Warrior tasks and drills.
I always maintain my arms, my equipment and myself.
I am an expert and I am a professional.
I stand ready to deploy, engage, and destroy the enemies of the United States of America in close combat.
I am the guardian of the freedom and the American way of life.
I am an American Soldier.

~An Army of One?~

Army

Alright boys and girls I met with the Army recruiter again today. I want this and he thinks that I can do it, even with my back issues. I need to lose some weight and get into shape, here is the kicker I need to decide soon. Because I could be sent out for basic's in the next ten or fifteen days, a month at the latest. I need someone to talk to about this, someone who has real bearing in my life, someone who will give me an honest opnion. The money has gone up big bonus, I mean I could make sixteen hundred dollars in a weekend. The guy is coming back tomorrow and we are going to talk about jobs and stuff. I don't know how to bring it up to my mom. I really don't know. I need someone to talk to. If I do the ROTC program I will make more money, I will be undeployable, I will graduate an officer instead of just another private. I need to talk this out with someone who will be honest with me. I'm not sure who to talk to.

~Contemplative~

Nuk

I've been in Clarion the last couple of days and it was fun. I helped this girl move out of her dorm room and it was less then amazing by the time we were done. I stole one of her binkies, she sucks her thumb, and have adopted it as my own.

I'm starting to feel like I'm going to spend the rest of my life alone. I know I just have to wait for my time, but that day seems so far away. Eventually Mr. Right will walk into my life I will know it. *Tall, dark, handsome, misterious smile, shaggy hair, blue eyes* I feel better now that I have said that.

You know I found out the other day that my friend Philips name isn't Philip it's Josh. Well it's Joshua Philip. I guess boys that go to Edinboro are just silly. He's gone home for the summer so "Philip" if you see this have a good summer.

It's been a really long day and now I'm going to bed.

~Exhausted with my Nuk~

5-9-06

I just want to say wow. It's been an interesting day and I don't know how to describe it. I guess I'm just really tired and need to go to sleep. Hey Philip, it's not a bunny! I swear! :)

~Dead Tired~

Oh Kids

Oh kids if you only knew the half of it. Let's just say that one will never have amazing sex and barf at the same time, now you are all wondering why I either 1. Know this or 2. Mentioned it. Well let me explain a little......there once was a kid and well I think you all know where this story is going......or to quote Philip, do you? Ha ha ha ha :) I know I know, I'm cute.

On another note, I'm finding lot's of boys like me but are intimadated by me. And I really just don't understand it. I mean I know I'm smart and I like to fight with people and I guess I'm a "pretty girl" to quote Philip. :) There is a long story behind Philip and I don't care to go into all the details so don't ask and I won't tell. Well then you ask, why mention that either. Because I can and I did.

I'm sweepy, and hungry and I guess I need a shower, or so I'm told. You know I just realized that Philip is an ass. Well anyway to make a not so long story end. I'm done.

~Kiss Me I'm Shit Faced~ *wink wink*

Emergency Room

I had someone look at my car and it's nothing big. I was kind of worried because it has never squeeked before. I can usually decifer the problem myself but I was perplexed on this one. I spent the day at Kim's playing with the baby and listening to music. I made dinner, it was the least I could do to help. It wasn't anything hard just some speghitti. You know simple stuff......though I can cook! :) Anyway, It's been a productive day and it was so nice and warm. I'm so happy that it's nice outside, warm. No more cold, no more snow. I heard some songs that I really liked and Kim let me borrow the CD to rip them to my laptop so they are now saved! HURRAY! Anyway I should really get to bed. Nighty night

~Sweepy~

P.S.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Out With Friends

I went out to my friend Kim's house today. It's really nice, a lot bigger then what I thought it would be, and so is Serra. I can't believe how big she is for 6 months. She's getting ready to crawl. She can move herself around. She's so cute. I can't wait to have my own. Anyway, that's about the most exciting thing that's happened all day. OH and my sister's chorus concert. It was really good. Well it was good except for the intermediate choir. They never do a very good job. Oh well. I guess. SWEEPY.

~Sleepy~