Long week

My boyfriend went to camp today, to be a counslor. He will be back next sunday. I hate this. I know he wanted to go. And I hope he is having a good time. I want him to have fun. He leaves to go back to State College on the 23. I don't want him to go back.

Anyway. Enough with the sad stuff.

My ear infection isn't getting any better and I think I might be getting strep to go along with it. I do not feel good at all. I need to go and get a job. I'm going to go to Wal-Mart tomorrow. I really don't want to get a job. But I need to. It means that there will be less time for me to see my boyfriend. :( Oh well I need money and stuff.

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Dying, I swear!

It's 1:29 and I can't sleep. I've been trying for like an hour, but I'm not tried enough I guess. My ear hurts so bad. It makes me so mad. I just want to sleep. I'm so conjusted. I can't sleep, I can't breath......here's an idea why don't you just suck my insides out and then walk all over them! Anyway....back to trying to sleep!

Drew

So nothing to exciting has happened today. I woke up to work out this morning to go work out and I about threw up on the floor. I decided that that just wasn't a good idea so I went back to bed. I ran a mile though later. I accually ran into a friend who said that I looked like I was losing weight. So that makes me feel really good about myself. I think I look better, and more defined. I just want to look and feel good.

My right ear isn't feeling any better at all. It's so awful. I just want to put a spoon in it and dig it out. It hurts so bad. I don't feel like doing anything at all. I'm not sure this medicine is doing anything for it at all. You know what I mean?

I'm not sure what I have done. I think I have really pissed my boyfriend off this time. He out of no where said he was "leaving", the conversation. I don't know what I did or said. But I feel really bad for it. :'( I love you babe! Please don't be mad at me.

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Relationship 3.5

So today as of 1:35 my boyfriend and I have been together for 3.5 years. Wow crazy about the title huh? Two in a row! We just kind of hung out and did nothing. Cuddled and made kissy faces. That's a good time. We went out to lunch, and my doctors appointment, but that's a nether story. I love you so much babe. I'm so glad that we could spend today together. I hope that we can be together for our 4 year anniversary!

So this doctors appointment you went to: *That's what I'm sure your asking* Yea well my ears have been bothering me. Sense I got back from vacation. Well I went to the doctor today. And low and behold I HAVE AN OUTER EAR INFECTION! So I have to take this medication by ear 3 drops 3 times a day for 10 days in both ears. Yeah for being sick. And now I'm all congested and I feel like crap. Anyway.....

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Many a years

So nothing overly exciting happened today. I woke up this morning at 8 only to fall back asleep until 9:15. So I got up and around 10 I went and worked out. And then picked up my "little sister". We went shopping today. We went to Claire's and the Good Will store in our Mall. It was a lot of fun. I so totally love having a little sister. We can spend time together and do all kinds of fun stuff!

So your wondering whether this title has a meaning? Or if it's meaningless like all the others. Well this one does. As of about 12 midnight, my boyfriend and I will be together for 3 and 1/2 years. I can't believe it. I'm so excited! We get to spend all day tomorrow together! Yeah for us.

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Dinner

I went out to dinner with Ken and a friend Jean and her husband Ron. Ken and I know Jean from the Multihandy cap room. And Ron, well this is the first time that I have ever met him. Ken was going to go with them and then he asked if I could go with, and so I did. We talked a lot about just random things. It was fun. It was almost like being out with my friends, my age friends. Anyway we started talking about marriage and Ken brought up how one of our friends asked when he was going to propose and Jean said in 4 years when you have a job. It wasn't until about 2 hours later, when it hit me. He tells me that it will be between this and this so that I will let it go. When in fact it may not be. (*Babe if I'm out on a complete limb and have no idea what I'm saying, let me know*)

To me being engaged doesn't mean you have to get married in a year or two. It can be as long as you want. My mom wants me to go all the way through college take the bar and then go on to join a firm before I start a family. Ok, see most people don't see a problem with that. By the time I accomplish college I'll be 26 or 27. So then join a firm and career. I'll probably be around 30 or 35. I don't want to wait till I'm 35 to have kids and a family. I guess the way that I see it, a family is more important to me. While some women have to have a career and a husband and kids and can balance it all, I want a husband and kids. If I have a career then I do. But I would rather not have to "make time" for my husband and children. It drives me nuts when people
"schedule" family time. A family night is one thing. But to say I'll spend from 3 to 3:30 with you today, sucks. I want to be a lawyer, which means I don't have a 9-5 job. I have a 24 hour job. I don't want to have to say hey look I have 15 minuets let's do this and then 3 minutes later get called. I want my family and when my kids get older to start something serious. I want to be able to watch my children grow up. I want to have time for my husband. I want these things while I'm still young enough to enjoy it all. I think I'm just rambling now. So I'm going to go

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Vacation From Hell

So I have been on vacation. For 2 weeks. It was hell. We were suppost to go to Hershey. Long story short we didn't go. Enough said.

I have also been having a burning feeling in the back of my throat and a watery and itching sensation in my ears. I think I might be coming up with an infection. I need to call my doctor monday, if things don't get better.

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Brightsides

So I'm leaving for 2 weeks tomorrow. That mean's I won't get to talk to my boyfriend or see him. :( I get to call once. WOW! A WHOLE ONCE! I'm going to miss my room and my bed. I'm not sure that I want to go. I want to stay here. Everything is going so well. For once in my life everything seems to be going the way I want it to. I'm a step closer to getting engaged. I'm starting college. I have a little. It just seems to me that, at this point, nothing can go wrong. (knock on wood.)

Ken, I love you. I will talk to you. I'm not sure when, but I will call you. I love you so much. Maybe I will buy you something nice! :) Keep your chin up.

And I will talk to you all in 2 weeks.

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What to do?

My boyfriends parents are treating him like dirt agian. I just wanted to help. He doesn't want me to pick him and his things up. He asked me not to be his hero. He want's God to take him out of this world. I always hoped that I didn't cause anymore pain. I just wanted to help. I want him to be happy. I want to make everything ok. But he doesn't want me to. So what am I suppost to do? There is nothing I can do.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Never agian

So today has just been another one of those blah days. I have been working more on my room. It's almost done. We still need to put the walls in. But other than that everything is almost done. I also have Henery. I'm not sure if I want to let him go. I'm afraid he'll freeze or something. I have a night stand now with pictures of Ken and I. It looks so good. My mom bought me another poseable lamp. It's one for desks. I love it.

I guess my mind has been really busy getting ready for life. College draws nearer. My boyfriend and I have been talking about engagment and marriage. He said he's starting to become more comfortable with the idea of being engaged. Probably like next Christmas. Which is like forever away, but I'm sure it'll be worth it. I have been thinking a lot about getting married and everything. We both agreed that there would be no alchol at our wedding reception. I think he's a little more accepting of the fact that I want to drink. Not like an alcholholoic. In my house the casual drink was alright. In his not so much. But it looks like it might be alright.

Cincinnati

So lets see what has happened in the world of me latley. I just got home from Cincinnati. I went for a week with my boyfriend. We left on Monday and we got there at 7:30. Tuesday we just kind of hung out and didn't really do anything. We went to lunch and then went to this little "pool". It's only 3/8 of an inch deep. Ash loved it, though he just loves water in general. Wednesday we hung around the house and didn't do to much until about 1:30 and then we went to the mall. And we shopped with my sister and her boyfriend for a while. And then they went home and we stayed and shopped for a little while. Thursday we went to Kings Island. It's an amusement park with a water park and rollercoasters. I loved the water park myself. And the rollercoasters were kind of scary. Friday was another lazy day. And Saturday we went back. It's was fun. It was just really depressing to wake up by myself. It was so nice to wake up next to him every morning.

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