Boys and Sticks?

Alright first I just want to say that it's so nice to be able to empty my mind to you agian.

Anyway, it seems to me that as of late I've been "beating boys off of me with sticks." It seems that sense I've been home from the Army guys have found me more attractive. I can understand why. I have lost 39 pounds, I look healthier and I feel great. Plus I'm dressing myself better. I don't know I guess I'm just not used to guys trying to get my attention. I'm always trying to get theres. A little make up, clothes that fit properly and straight hair and the guys seem to flock. I'm so not used to that. I'm not sure if I like it or not. I'm just trying to be cute and myself. Then I agian I guess that's what most guys want, a cute girl who's going to be herself. All I want is a good man, who will be a good boyfriend and will turn into a great husband and father. All I've ever wanted to be is a good girlfriend who will be a good wife and then mother. It seems to me that it's harder to find a good man then it should be. I've been cheated on and left for other women. I don't understand why, I'm not high maintence by any means. Pay a little attention to me, hold and kiss me now and then and I'm happy. I want my other half to be happy. Anyway I'm rambling, my mind has calmed a little, at least enough I hope to sleep for a while.

~Calmer~

Limbo

I've been home for a little over a week now. Well if you call hanging out and driving around being home. You know how that goes. Christmas has been good and to quick to come. No snow has made it kind of depressing. The only thing I truley wanted was snow.

In other news I feel so seperated from the rest of the world. I took a nap today and woke up feeling so seperated. One of my battle buddies is going to be in town and I can't see him because I have other things to do. *Flips out* I'm going to miss Bailey's wedding. I guess life will go on.

I don't know. I'm not sure how I feel about anything just yet. I need to just keep myself busy and not worry about things to much. Much love and a Merry Christmas.

~Army Strong~