Rock Bottom

I have been kind of busy latley. Between friends, working out, and learning all the stuff I need to for the army I just hit rock bottom today. I need to make sure that I weigh what I did when I enlisted, be able to run a mile in 10:30, I have to know my general orders and how to march, reverse march, callem left and right. On top of all of it I only have a week and a half left at home. So I cried for awhile and then I made myself run a mile when the runner's high set in and I knew that as long as I keep my eye on the prize I can do it. I can do anything. I have to get through this, I want to prove everyone who told me I could never do this wrong, I want to be a soldier, if I wasn't ment to make it I wouldn't have.

******Remember**********

My party is July 2 at my house at 3 p.m. Food and pop will be served, bring games, music or whatever.
Hope to see you there.

~Pumped~

Alone In The Army

Alright, before you all start let me explain. I feel so seperated from everyone, no one else know's what it's like. And I know your all thinking your still a civilian, your still you. It's untrue though, I'm held to Army standards, I'm expected to conduct myself in a way that is appropriate for the Army. Now your all thinking that I did it to myself. I did it for the betterment of the many. People say that and it almost makes me feel like the Army is a dirty secrect that no one should know about. I'm proud, I'm serving my country, my state and my town. I guess I know that I need to start breaking off ties that I have here, I need to start distancing myself from people. It's all just a mind game.

~Sad~

Vacation

I got into the car and drove to Cincinatti for a couple of days. I was suppose to leave today but I was having tire difficulties. (You know how that goes.) Not to much has happened while I was here. We went to King's Island, hung out at the hotel, came back to the house, bummed around, went to a festival and flirted with a cute boy, (he was a firefighter!) came back to the house. I'm glad that we came and hung out and I'm sad to go, but I need to get home and finish up the last few things I need to do before I have to leave. I have to take Emily to Pittsburgh on Wednesday so she can fly to Georgia for two weeks. I've been studing so I can test out of some of this crap for the army. That's about all for now. I haven't been running like I should but I'll get back to it when I get home and I swear that on my life.

~Zausted~

Hydetown Fair and Relay for Life

So this week has been kind of hectic for me. (well the end of the week at least) Friday consisted of going to Hydetown and running around for most of the night, then I went out to Kim's house and played a really long game of Monopoly. I got home around 3 and crashed then Saturday I was suppose to in Hydetown by like 9:15, I got there at 10 to 10. To top it all off I stepped into a hole and tore my knee up. Then when I got to Relay I had a sun burn on my face and I didn't have any sun screen, let me just say that my face really hurts. But it's ok because it's all over and things can only get better. I'm going to see my sister tomorrow, I'll be back Friday. I'm not sure what else is going on but I leave in just a little over three weeks. So for all you kids remember July 2nd at 3 at my house. (*It's my going away party*)

~Zausted~

Going on

Nothing much has gone down. I will not get to see my sister until after I get back. I ran with my recruiter today, wow that was unimpressive. I forgot my gum and so I made a complete and total ass of myself. Oh well, something to work on. I have to go to the office next week and test out on some stuff. Not hard stuff I don't think. I think I might go take a nap, and then hit up the track again, then to band practice.

~Irritated~

Running

It's been a couple of days sense I have updated, so here you go. I've been running almost daily, twice daily, I should say. I've been eating a lot more fruits and veggies and trying to drink more water. I been spending more time at home. I mean I'm still hanging out with friends but with the impending day approching I want to spend as much time at home as I can. I don't know if I'll be spending the night anywhere but home until I get back, just because I don't feel comfortable anywhere else. I met with the recruiter yesterday and he's going to call tomorrow to make a time to go over things. And one of my other recruiters is going to call and go running with me sometime this week. I'm trying to get into shape, make my life easier.

~Tired~