Almost Home

I was in the car with my sister and cousin yesterday, and I heard a song that I hadn't heard in about 2 years. Almost home.

He had plastic bags wrapped round his shoes.He was covered with the evening news.Had a pair of old wool socks on his hands.The bank sign was flashing '5 below,It was freezing rain an' spittin' snow.He was curled up behind some garbage cans.I was afraid that he was dead.I gave him a gentle shake.When he opened up his eyesI said, "Old man are you ok?"He said,
"I just climbed out of a cottonwood tree,I was runin' from some honey bees.Drip dryin' in the summer breeze,After jumpin' into Calico creek.I was walkin' down an old dirt road,Past a field of hay that had just been mowed.Man I wish you'd just left me alone,'Cause I was almost home."Then he said, "I's just comin' 'round the barnBout the time you grabbed my arm,When I heard Momma holler 'son hurry up.'I was close enough for my own noseTo smell fresh cobbler on the stoveAnd I saw daddy loadin' up the truckCane poles on the tailgateBobbers blowin' in the windSince July of '55That's as close as I've been."
"Yeah, I just climbed out of a cottonwood tree.I was runin' from some honey bees.Drip dryin' in the summer breeze,After jumpin' into Calico creek.I was walkin' down an old dirt road,Past a field of hay that had just been mowed.Man I wish you'd just left me alone,I was almost home."I said, "Old man you're gonna freeze to death.Let me drive you to the mission."He said, "Boy if you'd left me aloneRight now I'd be fishin'"
"I just climbed out of a cottonwood tree.I was runin' from some honey bees.Drip dryin' in the summer breeze,After jumpin' into Calico creek.I was walkin' down an old dirt road,Past a field of hay that had just been mowed.Man I wish you'd just left me alone'Cause I was almost home."(Almost Home)"Man I wish you'd just left me alone, I was almost home."

And today I heard a song. Live like you were dying. The chorus goes something like:
I went Skydiving, I went Rocky Mountian climbing, I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named blue-manshoe. And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgivness I'd been denying. And he said I hope someday you get the chance to live like you were dying.

I don't know. I guess it comes down to not being ready to let go of any of this. I haven't had enough time with my boyfriend, I want to get married to him, I want to have his children. I want to live my life out with him. We talked about what if's today at youth, what if I died tomorrow? What would he do? Would he move on? Would he find someone else? I love him so much. I love you so much.

~MORE LATER~