So my boyfriend of 3 years isn't ready for the next step. Anyone out there in the same situation? I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I don't know why he isn't sure, or doesn't want to make that commitment to me. 3 years. He says that he's sure about me, but that he's not ready for the next step. What have I been doing wrong? I'm starting to wonder if he really wants me, what, or if, he really thinks of me. Does he really see me as the beautiful person he keeps saying he does? Or is he just saying it? Does he really see himself spending the rest of his life with me? Or am I agian wrong?Or does he want someone else, but he doesn't want to hurt my feelings? So many questions and just no answers. When I ask him why he feels that way he just says that he's not ready for that yet. I know that we're only 18, but I've never been more sure of something in my life. But I'm starting to wonder. Questions keep seeping into my mind and answers are locked up out of sight and reach. I think I've come to this point in my life where I feel like, I'll just always be the girlfriend. I'll never be the wife or mother, or anything else. We'll never live together. It'll always just be the way it is now.
I don't know if an internship has anything to do with it either. Is he just trying to get away from me. Does he want time alone? Does he wish that I would just dissapear? He gave me a promise ring, I'm starting to question if I should wear it anymore. I'm am overweight, not that much though, tall 5'6 or 5'7, I don't really find myself attractive, I'm not good enough either. I wish I could be it the one. I wish that I could make him sure of me, of us. But I can't do that either. So I'm a no good, good for nothing girlfriend. So there looks like there is no engagment ring anywhere in my future at all.
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