Restless

I don't know what's going on with me. I've been so restless for the past couple of days and I can't seem to work my way out of it or to just throw myself out of it. I'm so afraid I'm going to push to hard and drive ***** away. Then again I'm afraid I'm not pushing hard enough. I want to know where this is going to go. AHHHHHHHHHHHH........

I can't find a calm in the storm either. I'm so hyped up for some reason. I'm not sure why, I can usually clear my mind and work it through. I'm not sure what is going on with me. I feel like I need to cry, but I have no need for it. I feel like I need to scream, but I don't want to. I feel like I need to eat 100 pounds of chocolate, but I don't feel like it. My mind is going a million miles an hour but my body doesn't feel like going one.

~BAH~