New Tricks?

I need to learn that it's not always my fault. If something happens or someone has something planned and they just abruptly need to go, it's not my fault. I didn't do anything wrong. So I have made my-self an improvement list (kind of like a honey do list, only these are things I need to re-teach myself).

1. It's not always my fault.
2. Don't assume because someone has to go abruptly that I've done something wrong.
3. Don't go on about me, make other people talk about them.
4. Tell my significant other what I think about him and not just to everyone else.

I think 1 and 4 will be the hardest. 1 because for a long time it always was my fault. And 4, I've just always kind of had a hard time opening up to guys like that, 1. I don't want to get hurt, but 2. Because I was never really raised to show to much emotion, be happy when you are and shut up when your not. I've fallen into that habit where if someone has to go all of a sudden I've done something wrong.

I've honestly spent a whole lot of time wearing the hat he gave me. I know, I know you all think I'm sad and pathetic. Well, your all probably right. I really like him and he makes me so happy. I have never had so much fun, or been so excited to see someone in my entire life. I've had so many people tell me lately that I'm carrying myself differently, that I look so much happier and that I'm so much more relaxed. And I see it. I really do, I don't know what he does to me, but I like it. I like that electrifying feeling everytime he's around, or when his arm brushes up against mine. *heart jumps*

I started studing for my math test. Looking over formulas, and problems that give me hell. I guess I'm more ready for this test that I thought I was. I need to memorize one or two things, but other than that I could take this test tomorrow and be fine. I've also started working on my 40% project for history. It's due Friday and I have read a lot of it. So I'm going to knock out the rest of the reading and then write the paper tomorrow.

~Trying to relax~