Monday, February 13, 2006

Family?

I was sitting in Detective Fiction today, trying to stay awake, listening to Dr. Atteberry rattle on about this that and the other thing. We started to talk about themes of the book we had read, The Galton Case, one of the themes in the book is family. How a "healthy family, makes for a "healthy" community and nation. My mind instantly started to wander around this idea. When a "disease" comes into contact with the "family" it does not only affect that but that of anyone else involved. Stay with me here. Alright, you know that my dad passed away from cancer. That didn't just affect my family, but his friends and co-workers, anyone he'd come into contact with, who could remember him was affected. Am I right? Then I started to wonder a little further. Why do people cheat on other people, why do people lie to people they care about? Why are people so quick to judge everyone? Why is the world so full of "diseased" families? Husband cheating on wives, wives cheating on husbands, (boyfriends, girlfriends, fiances, all apply here too.) How can you care about someone and do that? Maybe it's because I'm stupid, or I just don't see it......But wouldn't your conscious get in the way? Wouldn't it tell you that that was wrong. Don't get me wrong, I've never cheated on anyone, I know sounds hard to believe, but how could I? If I care for someone wouldn't I want to hold on to them? Why would I want to even consider jeopardizing my relationship if I have a good thing? I mean is that just me or do people agree? Why would you intentionally ruin your family if you care about them so much? I was watching a movie the other night, the man comes home from a business trip in San Francisco, but not just that he had been cheating his wife with a twenty something women. He came home to tell her that he wanted a divorce so he could be honorable and marry this other women. How is that honorable? How could you be married to someone for a year, or twenty years and then have your significant other come home one day and just say I don't care about you anymore I want a divorce? I don't work like that. If I care, I care with everything I have. Divorce rates have sky rocketed. People give up, and take the easy way out.....What I want to know is it because you never loved that person, or is that because you are an ass-hole who decided to marry the first pretty girl who'd look at you, and then when she's been by your side for so long, and stood by you, supported you, you give up on her for a new leggy blonde? Debbie said it best when she said that *Music is full of romance, and you are full of music* She's right. I think I'm a pretty passionate person. I try to make sure everyone knows how much I care about them. What if tomorrow never comes? Have you thought about that? Would your friends, family, significant other know how much you do care? I don't want to regret anything, I dislike some of the things that I have done, but I cannot regret them because they have molded me to be who I am. I'm afraid, to be the "disease." I don't want to ruin a good thing, and I don't want to hold on to a bad one. Families break up, people dislike members of their families, brother against brother, mother against father. I guess I just want to know where the "disease" has come from......

~Contemplative~

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