Boys

I've learned that you can't ask any questions around here without being crusifide by someone. I asked my mom today, innocently, why I couldn't have a boy spend the night. And her answer? Can you guess.................*waits* Because it's my house. Wow what an answer. Not only did I get that answer but I also got yelled at. Because she doesn't want Grandma and Pete to say anything. You know boys and girls I'm starting to wonder if I should just transfer at the end of this semester, I still have a shot. I mean it's not a guarantee but if I made it in, at least I would get to be out of here, living in a new place and making new friends. I love that it's ok for me to spend the night in boys dorms, but it's not ok for a boy to spend the night when my mom isn't home. You know what it is.....she won't say it but I mean what else could it possibly be? She doesn't want me to have sex. Come on? My brother did it, my sister did. My sister had a baby. And now I feel like I'm being held to those standards as well. Boys are good while no one is looking, but the second someone is around shhhhh no boys. What the fuck? 3.81, National Honor Socitey, National Honor Roll, Who's Who Among American High School Students student and I can't be trusted with a boy when no one is home, but can be when no one is around and no one can stop me. WTF?!?!?!?! Boys are ok when no one can stop me, but the second I want to come home it's totally wrong. I don't understand that. That honestly makes no sense to me. WHY DO PEOPLE THINK I CANNOT BE TRUSTED? I can't see what else that would mean. It's my house, is no answer, it's the easy way of saying I can't trust you, or I don't want you to have sex. Screw off people. Your not being a parent or a friend.

~Pissed~