Never Good Enough

I hung out with a friend that I haven't seen in a while. It was all good until a couple of other people showed up. We went and played tennis. I'm not any good at tennis by any means, I'll admit that, and he made me feel like I wasn't good enough. I was trying really hard, it's not like I was just screwing off and not trying. My opnion wasn't good enough. Anything I said was "stupid" or "ignorant." I can't play a video game, because I'm not good at them. I've never been good with failure. I'm good at everything, except for tennis, video games and a bunch of other stuff. I try, but trying doesn't seem to be good enough for most people. This is one of those days that started out great, but deterorated when he started treating me like I wasn't good enough. I guess his "brothers" still have his back. If I've learned anything from college it's don't try to impress people be you and they will accept you or they won't.

I had so much fun with the guys last night. We shot a paintball gun. I totally sucked hard core, but Tylere was supportive and was totally like I just want you to do it once. Well long story short I didn't, but Brad left his wallet in my car so I took it to them and he handed me the gun and told me to hit the target, guess what? First shot. That's right I hit the bottle on the first shot. Tell me why I couldn't do that last night? No idea. I've been having a lot of political conversation's latley. I feel like I'm falling back into it again. I remember why it's my minor. :)

I need more sleep. I really do, I crashed around midnight every night this week and got up at 9. And then yesterday I crashed at 3:30 a.m. and got up at 11:30 a.m. I really need to sleep in tomorrow. I have to do my take home test finish up Kiss The Girls and my math. I however feel that sleeping is my #1 priority right now because I'm starting to feel it physically. 2 weeks. I'm so glad that we are down to 2 weeks.

~Mentally and Physically Exhausted~