The Right Regrets?

I read one of my friends journals last night and she brought up an interesting point, "who is on the other side of the rope? Destiny? God? Society? Yourself? " Let's think about this shall we. I guess it really goes back to what do you believe? What do you want to believe what do you think is right for you? She called me on it, I'm harder on myself then anyone else is on me. Why is that? Because if I'm not hard on me who will be? If I don't push myself to get it done who will do it? Not that I've been pushing very hard latley. I need to stop putting things off and start getting them done. I need to stop acting like a high school senior and start acting like the under-dog that I am. I'm a freshmen. Not a senior. I need to get back into doing what I was doing before. I need to break this half hearted bull-shit. I can do so much better. Look at my transcripts. I need to act like I'm intelligent instead of babbling and rambling. I'm smart, I just need to apply myself MORE. "All we can hope to do is end up with the right regrets." Right now I'm regretting not trying harder, not putting more effort in. *smacks self* How to remotivate myself? It's the end of the semester and that's not helping. I just want it to be over, I need a break I need out.

~Headach~