Threatened

Let me start by saying that Dylan and I had spent a couple of days together and now I find myself unable to sleep during his absence from my house. (This is nothing unusual) I have found myself thinking about alot of things. The army, Greensburgh, Correy and Titusville, and ex-girlfriends. All things that I'm afraid might screw up my relationship. The rumor is that we are being deployed in January and I don't want to leave him for an 18 month tour of duty, but then again I really don't have any choice. Greensburgh is only temporary and I can come home almost every weekend, minus drill weekend that is. I hate that he lives an hour away, and I guess at that it's not even really an hour is more like 30 minutes. Though it still feels like forever to me. I think the one that has hit me the most is his ex-girlfriend. I don't know why I feel so threatened by her. He doesn't want her back and he has made that perfectly clear to me. After all the hell she put him through, I believe him when he says he will NEVER go back to her. There is just something about her that drives me insane. Anyone who know's me know's that I like everyone until you give me a reason not to, and she didn't have to give me a reason she just pushed some button in me and that's all it took. Then again this raises some outstanding questions I never thought about before.........

~Wondering~