Have you ever felt completly stressed beyond your means? I mean do you ever feel like someone is pushing you to far and hard and you just don't say anything? I'm starting to feel that way and it's probably because everything is so fast approaching. I'm stressed out of my mind about things and making sure that everything gets done. I'm a list maker and promise your going to get it done type. Don't make me look like an ass because you will be sorry. Dylan keeps telling me that he doesn't want to go because he know's that I'm going to be stressed out about things and he says I'm hard to talk to when I'm stressed and that I bitch. I just feel like I can talk to him and that he listens to me. But obviously he doesn't want to deal with it. So I think maybe I should just keep my mouth shut. I don't want to scare him away. Though I'm starting to think that he's getting sick of me. I'm so scared to just be happy because every time I do that I lose the one thing I want most. Though maybe that's something else I just need to suck up and deal with. I don't want him to tell me that I'm hard to talk to or deal with anymore, it makes me feel like I'm a bad girlfriend. He never wants to talk about what's wrong until it's time to go to bed. Maybe I should just get a straw and suck it up. That's probably what I'll do. I'm not going to bitch or complain to anyone I'm just going to get a straw and run or walk away when I feel the need to.
~Losing the War~
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