Perfect?

The other day I watched the movie Hannible with some friends. He really ate people. Don't get me wrong I did know that. I understood the whole concept, but he ate people. The movie made me cry no less. But it made me think. People do things because they are learned. Learned habits. Don't you think that maybe you eat the things you do or the way you do because your parents did? Do you say please and thank you? My dad would never eat steak bleeding and I don't either....but my mom does. Taylor eats dog, alright so it was once and it was in another country......but something had to of made him open to the idea. People don't like change by nature. This has proven more and more true. I feel like I get catorgorized with people whom I am far above. Now, don't get me wrong I think I'm better then no one. But I'm not a bad person and sometimes I feel like I get charaterized with them. I want nothing more then to save the world. That's all I've ever wanted. To save the whole world. My mom always told me that one person will never make a difference. I got into a fight the other night and while it made me realize that words are just words. I will never save the world. Sean's right. I'm mad that there is no cure for cancer because it wasn't there when I needed it. There was no cure for SMA, when I needed it. Why do I continuosly run into instances where I fail? I met a guy and I'm waiting for the catch. Even though there isn't one. I don't think I've ever asked for much in life but what I do ask for I never get. And maybe that's my hang up. Maybe this battle isn't the world agianst me. Maybe it me against me.

~Pondering~