Biology

Some thing never change. Some people never change, and yet the world still revolves. Nothing seems to make it stop. It forever seems to go on and on. While sometimes it gets so old, sometimes I wonder what would happen if the world stopped. Where would I be? Where would any of you be? I feel like my world is slowing down, but my life is speeding up. I feel like my life has turned into the hurry up and waits of the Army. While I love the Army, I don't love that. I feel like I wait around a lot anymore, but I don't know why because I'm never sitting still. I'm either invited to this party or that one, I'm hanging out with Kris and Dylan, I'm in Edinboro with my friends, I'm at school, or Drill. Nothing stands still. I haven't accually been bored the entire time I've been home until this weekend. My life stopped. I didn't have to be anywhere or do anything. I realized then that I need a busy, hetic, stressful life style. And maybe that's why I fit into the Army so well. I function better that way. In the words of D.S. Vandzant "Keep your wits about you." and I can. I never used to like me and now, I love myself. People where right when they said guys like confident girls. I wish I could understand, however what I am to do in my current predicament. I want to be with this guy, but he is what it seems to me, is ignoring the situation. There are so many guys out there, I just last night got asked out. I don't want to settle for second. Not that anyone who has asked me out is second, or not good enough. I have my mission and I really don't want to give up until it's completed, but it's seeming to me that it may not be completible. I guess I really need to realize that this rests souly on him. My life just meerly hangs in the balance. So I will continue to wait. However I will not wait forever, however because I to want only to be happy.

~Quizical~