Wednesday

Once agian I talked to the mechanics, wednesday! Anyway.....more emotional rollacoaster. I really hate myself. He acts like it's all my fault. Sometimes I feel like it is. Sometimes I don't understand why I believed all the lies. I don't know that I'll ever be able to trust another man. Let alone one who says he loves me. It's so scary to think that you can just take some thing like I love you back. I feel so alone. I feel so abandoned. I was dumped and I didn't really get any answers. It was it's over. I was in love, I guess he wasn't. That's what I get for letting someone in, for letting someone get close to me. I'm just going to cry myself to sleep.

~Hurt~