I give up. He read my blogg yesterday, which I didn't expect. But aside from that I didn't want to start anything either. I just needed to vent and let some things out to feel better. And of course I'm just jumping into things and all this crap. I just needed to let it out and vent, but I have done nothing but caused problems. I don't think that I'm blaming anything on anything or anyone inparticular. But I must be. He doesn't want me to change or be anything that I'm not. But when anytime you talk about something, that your passionate about, how do you not get crushed when someone continually tells you no, or not yet. It's not the no or not yet, it's getting yelled at or making him mad, that has made me decide that it's not worth talking about. I understand it's his decision, his choice. I can live with that. Maybe it's not all it's cracked up to be. I just want to be loved. It's not about jumping into anything, I want to be loved and cared for. I wish that I could explain how I feel. I wish I knew how to put everything into words.
He who is not impatient is not in-love. –Italian Proverb
Greatest tragedy in life is not that men parish, but that they cease to love. –W. Somerset Maugham
I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart so long. If we dream we can play together all night long. –Bill Waterson
Absence from who we love is worse than death. –William Cowper
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