Where to go?

I don't know what to do with myself. It's days like this that make me wonder why I have to be alive. I haven't eaten, I didn't sleep well, it was a bad day. So many things............so many things I didn't want to have to face, but I did. I did my best. I think I did, at least. And that's all that counts. The question is: To be, or not to be?

The surgery went well. And all should be fine. I'm really happy that it's all over and hopefully it's the end of all of this. I feel bad for the kids, they have spent more time at "me mums" and Pap pap's then at home. But I guess things happen, and sometimes they are to far beyond your own controll.

I went shopping with my "twin" today. I had a good time. We got to talk about a lot of things. She is so right about so many things. I don't know what I would do without her. You know who you are.

~A wreck~