When I really should be sleeping.....

So much has been going on in my life lately. I hung out with a friend in Erie today, I then hung out with some girls I went to high school with. We talked about a lot of things. Had hot coco and French fries over boy talk......of course! :)

I also saw my really close friend today. In a much better mood! It was an unplanned visit but yet again another emergency had arisen and I was accually already on my way to Erie to go shopping with a friend. So it was no biggy. We all went to Wal mart and then went back to their place and had some pop and then my friend and I were on our way to go shopping.

I keep missing ******** online. I'm afraid he's going to hate me. I was suppose to talk to him the other night until emergencies arose, and then he messaged me today while I was in the shower and didn't realize it until I got home. I was really hoping he'd be on tonight, but to no avail. Maybe I can catch him tomorrow. *Crosses fingers*

Talking with my friend who lives in Erie has made me realize so many things about myself. They were born and raised in Texas. Southern Bells. Then there is me......the Iron Rose. I'm not afraid to hold anything back. I can hold my tongue if necessary, but I'm not afraid to be honest. I don't mind doing the dirty work. My dad always said "don't let others do for you, what you can do for yourself." Is that wrong? I don't think I need a man to do things for me, I don't think I need a man. I would love to be loved and be in-love with someone. But I don't think I need it. I'm highly opinionated. I'm not saying that's what they said. Here is an example, we got a car battery at wal-mart, I picked it up out of the trunk of my car.....not a big deal to me, I do it all the time, they however did not think I should be carrying a car battery. Not because I was a women, but because it's not the way things are done. Men carry the heavy, labor intensive things and do the hard work and women make dinner and clean and take things easy. To me this is the 21st century women can do anything. Join the military, have a high end career, travel, lift heavy car batteries, change tires and oil, get dirty. I'm not saying that this person said women can't do any of those things. I don't know exactly what I am trying to say. Should I not pick up the car battery? Should I hold my tongue and be slightly less opinionated? Or not at all? Should I leave the politics and government running to men? Should I abandon everything I thought that I stood for, because I am a women?

~Contemplative~