Dinner

I went out to dinner with Ken and a friend Jean and her husband Ron. Ken and I know Jean from the Multihandy cap room. And Ron, well this is the first time that I have ever met him. Ken was going to go with them and then he asked if I could go with, and so I did. We talked a lot about just random things. It was fun. It was almost like being out with my friends, my age friends. Anyway we started talking about marriage and Ken brought up how one of our friends asked when he was going to propose and Jean said in 4 years when you have a job. It wasn't until about 2 hours later, when it hit me. He tells me that it will be between this and this so that I will let it go. When in fact it may not be. (*Babe if I'm out on a complete limb and have no idea what I'm saying, let me know*)

To me being engaged doesn't mean you have to get married in a year or two. It can be as long as you want. My mom wants me to go all the way through college take the bar and then go on to join a firm before I start a family. Ok, see most people don't see a problem with that. By the time I accomplish college I'll be 26 or 27. So then join a firm and career. I'll probably be around 30 or 35. I don't want to wait till I'm 35 to have kids and a family. I guess the way that I see it, a family is more important to me. While some women have to have a career and a husband and kids and can balance it all, I want a husband and kids. If I have a career then I do. But I would rather not have to "make time" for my husband and children. It drives me nuts when people
"schedule" family time. A family night is one thing. But to say I'll spend from 3 to 3:30 with you today, sucks. I want to be a lawyer, which means I don't have a 9-5 job. I have a 24 hour job. I don't want to have to say hey look I have 15 minuets let's do this and then 3 minutes later get called. I want my family and when my kids get older to start something serious. I want to be able to watch my children grow up. I want to have time for my husband. I want these things while I'm still young enough to enjoy it all. I think I'm just rambling now. So I'm going to go

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