Today, Tomorrow....

So today, yeah nothing to much happened. Class was interesting. What are you going to do? Nothing I guess. Although, youth still has me questioning things. Why get married? Yes, I understand because you love someone, but your going to die. I know it's suppost to make you happy. But your going to lose the other person eventually. Why would you want to subject yourself to that? I love my boyfriend, but that doesn't mean that we can be happy all the time. I am not a good girlfriend, I don't know what he wants to do with me. I don't know why he wants anything to do with me. I am a loud, outspoken, obnixious person with the list never ending. I can't do anything for him. He is so much smarter, more talented, perfect, than me. And here he is stuck with me. I'm not smart or pretty. In fact I'm fat and unattractive. I don't know what to believe anymore. He says I'm beautiful, but then agian he's been lying about other things. How much money he has. What he buys when he buys them. I don't know what's up and what down anymore. I wish I knew what was going on, but he says I can't. I don't know that I want to know what it is. I love him and I know he's trying to suprise me, but I don't know what he would suprise me with and when. I don't even think whatever it is that he bought is for me. At least that's what he said. That it may not be for me. I guess I don't care whether he bought me anything. I'm not important enough, for anything. I'm not worth anything.

The Grad